I was facing cataract surgery. Normally, this would not be a problem because most people have vision in two eyes. I have vision only in my left eye which is the eye the surgeon would try to correct. Meanwhile, I realized that if the surgeon messed up, I would be blind for the rest of my life. This has always been a fear of mine since I was a little girl. Unless you only see out of one eye you probably won’t understand the fears that you can experience. So here I am facing a fear that I have carried for many years. I’ve been wearing glasses since I was a very young child. I had surgery when I was 20 years old for a lazy right eye, even though I could not see out of that eye. At that time they covered your eyes after surgery and when you woke up you saw nothing – total blackness until those bandages were taken off by the doctor.
I know I needed to have my left eye corrected because it was getting harder for me to see. I prayed and decided to do it. This was not an easy decision. I had my prayer warriors, who are faithful to pray, joining me and asking God to help me trust Him. After all, we are only human and God understands when we feel weak and afraid. I’m sure some of you who are reading this blog have felt the same way. In spite of what I was feeling, I had to trust God’s promises in His word that says “Cast all your cares upon Him for He cares about you” (1 Peter 5:7).
In God there is healing, so I forged ahead with the surgery, It went well but then I had a hard time because the cataract was very large and my eye was very small. I had a cloudy cornea for a few days it was very difficult for me to see. The devil haunted me and told me I’d never see again, but God!!! I kept my mind on Him as the Scripture teaches us. I received great support from my family and friends, and then I rested, trusting in Him that my eyesight would return. The good news is that the cloudy cornea healed, and slowly – but very slowly – my eyesight is returning. Today my eyesight is still blurry but I’m beginning to see new things I’ve never seen before. My eyesight is improving every day.
So, if you are facing your greatest fears today, don’t depend on your own feelings, but trust the God who knows you intimately and loves you more than you could ever imagine. He has a plan for me and He has a plan for you, and as we submit to His plan, He will give us perfect peace as our mind is stayed on Him (Isaiah 26:3). Receive His peace today.